Ebbing

There’s this heaviness in the chest that doesn’t seem to go. It’s entirely unreasonable and quite troubling. To feel a constant pain in your heart cannot be encouraging in any way, no matter how hard you look. This heaviness devours you completely. You may either spend the day looking for ways to get rid of this raw feeling, thinking about everything you have done wrong, or even try to find out its silver lining, only in vain. Look for a ray of positivity, and you may end up listing out all the things that could possibly go wrong. But at the end, it causes you to overthink. And with each thought that crosses your mind, you feel an increase in the weight placed on your chest. This heaviness acts as an anchor, which is unfortunately tied to your leg instead of a ship, and makes you drown. As time passes by, you go further down into the ocean, into an abyss, where only darkness accompanies you. Call it depression, or term it to be a result of your anxiety, it somehow strips away your happiness bit by bit leaving you with a plethora of memories. Memories that hurt you, memories that make you lonely, memories that depress you, and memories that make you cry. But would you believe me if I say that’s good? If I tell you that remembering something that can make you cry is only going to help you?
Maybe not. But, somehow, it does. Cry out your heart and you will end up shedding off so much of the weight that was put on you, the weight that was drowning you. Crying rusts out the chain that anchors your leg and sets you free. But that isn’t sufficient to help you out of the deepest point of the ocean. Now, it is your efforts that count. How hard you swim to the top, towards the light and the air you desperately need, is going to determine where you end up. It’s a very brief window, which requires insane amounts of self-confidence, and the will to become happy, where only you can save yourself. Initially, at least. And if you are really lucky, you will find someone a few miles upwards to help you out. Just have faith in yourself and take full benefit of the glow that comes after crying hard.
And even if the heaviness returns, which it will, you know that if you came up once, you can fight it off easily again. You may not even need the aid of crying to lose the weight. Having been through so much, your mind is strong enough to give the courage you need. Get up, push off the weight, and smile. For the one you love and for yourself.